When the Health Nurse asked me how I was going at the twins 6 month check-up, my answer was, "Ok. Still struggling with the 11am feed". Inside I was screaming, "Can somebody please help me? Tell me what to do! How can I provide for my 23 month old and cater for the twins needs?" I was desperate. This was not how it was supposed to be. Reality was clashing with my idealistic picture.
Counselling has helped me to accept that I can't do it all. I don't have just one baby, I actually have three! I have accepted that without family nearby daycare is my alternative and they have become part of my support network. Chook, Strawberry and Ooffa attend 2 days a week. I have also accepted that it's okay if things don't go to plan, there's always the next day and the next and the next. There is no time line to motherhood. There are thousands of opportunities to 'get it right'. It is important that I get out of the house most days. I get a bit antsy if I haven't left the house for more than two days! We attend the library, Playgroup and a Mother's Group. Again, they are all part of my support network. It really does take a village!